And I don't mean literally.

I'll be 19 in a couple of weeks, and quite preferably, I'd don't want to spend another 6 months in this hell hole I call home. Tired of the attitudes, siblings, parents talking shit behind my back. I'm just tired of it all. I have been unsuccessful in finding a job around here, I've put in app after app after app and it just isn't working. Furthermore, I had decided that I'd try to stay longer to at least attend college, that sure and the hell isn't going to work out as I may end up blowing my brains out should I have to stay any longer than I'd like.

I'm not sure on what I can do to get on the right track here. Whatever the case, it seems vastly impossible to stay here for another 6 months, at least I would be a bit satisfied if I had my own money, because I'd be buying my own food and whatnot.

Anybody have any tips or any advice that may help me choose the right direction, if there is one?